I've been promised that a lot of things will happen someday. Fall in love with my future wife, marry her in the temple, have a great marriage and raise righteous, happy children. Affect the world in my chosen field. Be strong in the Church and grow righteous enough so that, like Captain Moroni, I'll be entirely free of the influence of Satan in my life. Someday.
My parents instilled in me a deep sense of industry, though - and so my waiting is a little more intense than the norm. I can't sit in a hospital waiting room and leaf idly through magazines, or sit idly outside the bishop's office for an interview. I guess the issue is that I have trouble just waiting - and so while I wait, I work on something else. If I'm expecting a phone call, I take my phone with me outside to run, or to the gym. I take girls out who I think would enjoy it for low-stakes, fun dates while I'm trying to figure out who to really ask. And while I wait on the Lord to help me understand His will for me, I write my innermost thoughts and broadcast them to the world as (Gay) Mormon Guy.
I used to simply ask for the blessings I knew I needed. Now, when I turn to the Lord, I find myself asking Him to prepare me for blessings, and help me find opportunities to serve, as much as I ask for the blessings themselves. While single, I've met people all over the world and had the opportunity to be a part of their lives - something that I may not have been as quick to do while married with children. (I definitely would have never started this blog, either) And, as I've waited, and worked, and prayed, I've seen changes in my own life - imperfections slowly buffed away and character developed into who I someday want to be.
In the end, the hopes I have for someday are widely different than the hopes that God has for me. I want to fall in love, be married, and grow with my family in righteousness. God wants me to be the best father and husband I can - and so He is teaching me now, with opportunities only available while I'm single. I want to shout the joy of the truth from the rooftops; He wants me to better understand the people, the message, and how to compose my words to be applicable - so that I'm not just shouting. I want to return to live with Him someday; He wants me to become more like Him today.
I'll keep waiting. I know that He will fulfill His promises to me - He's God. When He makes a promise, He always keeps it. But getting to someday probably requires effort on my part, and so I keep moving, working, praying... while I'm waiting for someday to come.
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